rethinking..

I've been seriously thinking about my college career lately... I'm always thinking about it, but lately, more than ever. The farther and farther that I'm falling behind in English, I just feel like the biggest failure. I'm not being a very good role model to my sister; who will be in college as well this coming fall. My boyfriend, has all these plans for his future, he's going to Delta, becoming a welder and he just has his whole life figured out. My sister, she's going to do the "2 and 2" program with Delta and Northwood for Hospitality Management. So, why the hell can't I figure anything out? I've done so many different things to try to figure it out... I was in the Nursing Assistant class at the Bay Arenac Career Center my junior year, got my CNA. Yeah, that's cool and all, it's honestly a pretty big accomplishment... but, is that what I wanna do? No. My senior year, I went back to the career center and I was in BIP (business information processing) for half of the year. That wasn't my thing either. So, after half way through I switched into the Culinary class. That was fun, awesome actually, but not something I wanna do for the rest of my life either... I really have no idea what I wanna do. At my graduation party, I knew I would get this question ALOT, "What are you going to do now that you're out of high school?" or "What are you going to college for?" I didn't wanna answer "I don't know" to this question over 100 times so I told everyone a different career field, as a joke. It was actually really funny, but in all seriousness I feel so stupid answering "I don't know" to that question. When I got into college I took the "Career Decision Making" class and that didn't help me much either... The more I think about it, is college even right for me?