rethinking..

I've been seriously thinking about my college career lately... I'm always thinking about it, but lately, more than ever. The farther and farther that I'm falling behind in English, I just feel like the biggest failure. I'm not being a very good role model to my sister; who will be in college as well this coming fall. My boyfriend, has all these plans for his future, he's going to Delta, becoming a welder and he just has his whole life figured out. My sister, she's going to do the "2 and 2" program with Delta and Northwood for Hospitality Management. So, why the hell can't I figure anything out? I've done so many different things to try to figure it out... I was in the Nursing Assistant class at the Bay Arenac Career Center my junior year, got my CNA. Yeah, that's cool and all, it's honestly a pretty big accomplishment... but, is that what I wanna do? No. My senior year, I went back to the career center and I was in BIP (business information processing) for half of the year. That wasn't my thing either. So, after half way through I switched into the Culinary class. That was fun, awesome actually, but not something I wanna do for the rest of my life either... I really have no idea what I wanna do. At my graduation party, I knew I would get this question ALOT, "What are you going to do now that you're out of high school?" or "What are you going to college for?" I didn't wanna answer "I don't know" to this question over 100 times so I told everyone a different career field, as a joke. It was actually really funny, but in all seriousness I feel so stupid answering "I don't know" to that question. When I got into college I took the "Career Decision Making" class and that didn't help me much either... The more I think about it, is college even right for me?

priorities

I need to make a drastic change in my priorities... My school work needs to come first! And, I know that. But, for some reason it's just not clicking in my brain. Senior year I developed a bad case of "senioritis" and I guess I just haven't recovered from that yet... But, I need to. High school did not prepare me for all of this, I don't believe. Because whether they will admit it or not, they kind of "babied" you. They came and found you if something was missing or you were behind on something. Now, in college, it's on you. I don't think high school really prepared me on that, especially.
Right now, my priorities go like this... 1. boyfriend 2. work 3. school... School needs to be number 1. I can't afford to fail another class. My bank account, and my GPA just cant handle it. Someone needs to smack some sense into me... Because I feel if I keep going at the rate that I'm going, I WILL fail my English class! :(

academic caution

Last semester, I took three classes... Career Decision making (which didn't help at all), Basic Math (passed with an A!), and then I took American Government... Now, I've recently found out that I did not pass my American Government class. And, unfortunately, that was a four credit class. That took my cumulative GPA down to .66! Now, Delta has me on "Academic Caution" which means if I fail anymore classes, or if my GPA gets any lower... I could possibly be suspended or expelled from Delta. And, that also means I have to go through a counselor to make my schedules for each semester until I raise my GPA... I definitely feel like a failure. :( But, now I'm trying harder than ever to get my GPA up. This semester I am taking Pre-Algebra, and English 111. I'm falling a little behind in my English, which is not good. But I'm gonna "put my nose to the grind" and I'm bound and determined to pass this class!

intro

Right now, I'm a part time student at Delta. And, currently I'm in my second semester of my freshman year. I don't have a major picked out yet, so right now I am working towards my "MACRO Certificate" What's that you ask? My counselor, here at Delta, told me that basically it's called the "I don't know what the hell I wanna do" degree. But in the end, once you achieve the MACRO you can transfer to any university with your general studies. So, in the long run, I think it's a pretty good choice. You need 32-34 credits to receive the certificate, so if you're a full time student then it should only take a little over 2 years to achieve. But, since I'm not a full time student it'll take me a little bit longer.

I'm only taking a couple classes in each semester though, because I pay for everything out of my own pocket. I pay for my own tuition, books and whatever else I need. Last year, I didn't qualify for ANYTHING from FAFSA and I was too lazy to apply for any scholarships... So, I pay it all myself. I honestly kinda screwed myself with the scholarships though. Oh well, I guess. I have a part-time job and I'm making it through okay, so far.